OK. This sucks.
I know I am doing everything I can. I know I have a skill set
and a plan that will work. I know that the sacrifices I am making now
will pay off hugely in the future for me and all those in my pack I hold dear.
I know this – or I would not be doing it.
However, there is a gnawing feeling in my gut sometimes… the one that says
in a little voice:
"Daddy, are you really going to be there for me if I need you?"
God yes baby… I will be there for you, always. I can always take you away
if you want. It might not be to the palace we both hope for yet. It might not be
to a life completely to your liking… but we will be together, and when that
happens anything seems to be possible to me.
- I am doing my best.
- I am working as hard as I can.
- I don’t sleep.
Why is it sometimes I still feel like I am failing them?
Ed. Note: I’ll be OK. You don’t need to console me on this or tell me it’s
all OK. I just need to say it and get it out of my head sometimes.