It is what it is.

Less than 4 days have passed since I put a big ass dragon on my arm. The dragon itself is a variation on the concept known as the Leviathan. Why did I choose this art? Because it describes my views on power well… when it is all going right it is below the surfaces gliding freely and effortlessly. When it has to breech the surface, it does so unflinchingly. This is relevant because this is one of those times. Much sooner than I would have expected that power has had to remind us all that there can be no compromise on some things. I will look it all straight in the eye.

As many of you know Kimiko has been in my continuous service for much more than a decade. In addition to this, I have also considered her my property for much of that. Last but by no means least Kimiko is family, and she is one of my girls. She has been my friend and my confidant. Of those three relationships (property, servant and Daddy’s girl) that existed at least in theory when I woke up this morning only one remains.

I stopped considering Kimiko my property earlier this afternoon when it became clear to me that she no longer could replace her own judgment with my own. There were limits to how far Kimiko would follow an order that I would not accept.

Later in the day, we spent time trying to decide if she could remain in my service. There is more flexibility in service than there is in ownership so this might have been possible. The opportunity to remain in my service at this time collapsed a little while ago when it became clear that Kimiko has violated the honor of this house by having an affair.

Why blog about this? I speak and educate often on topics related to “extreme dominance”. This is not really a term I use myself but it is one others use to describe my ideas. The core concept of which I speak is the uncrossable line. What do you do when faced with a “this far and no further” choice. My stance on this is what people often mean when they call me “extreme”. Many have listened to me speak on these things… and some have told me that they are following my example. They have often asked me how should someone react in a situation like this.

Here then is my answer and my action: When pushed, you will either hold fast to your ideals or you will not. I will and I have.

There will be people looking at this situation (the BDSM community is small, this will no doubt make the rounds) who will wonder how this relates to another topic I speak on – poaching. I have said in the past that the sanctity of a collar is only as important to me as my relationship with the dominant who owns it. I owe no one the privilege of recognizing their domain unless they have earned that from me. In all the world there are only a very small handful of people who are not in my household who I would never cross because they are my pack and a scattering of others who I consider allies and thus protected by what amounts to “treaty”.

Everyone else is to some extent fair game. This reality is harsh, honest and unpopular but frankly trying to stay popular is the least of my issues this evening.

In my own turn, I do not blame the poacher who was on my land. They owed me no loyalty. They owed me no allegiance of any kind. My property was, by my standards, fair game for them. Had the situations been reversed I would not have hesitated a moment to take something from them if I wanted it. They have earned my enmity by acting against my interests – but that enmity is not motivated by anger or a feeling of betrayal. They owed me nothing, and so I am not angry or betrayed by them.

The sanctity of my domain is solely my responsibility and I will make no appeal to the good nature of others to protect it nor will I place any claim of brotherhood or kinship on those who are not my allies or friends. This incident will not change that. So there we are. My ownership will accept no boundaries – and thus it is ended. My house will accept no betrayal, and thus her service is ended. Exactly as I always held it had to be.

However Daddy endures. In a recent episode of Power in Practice we spoke of what “Daddy” was to us. In that I mentioned that Daddy is there for me because Daddy can love when Ownership cannot. Daddy can forgive what Ownership cannot. Daddy can endure and survive. Daddy is our safety net. Daddy is our salvation.

I love Kimiko and have for a long time. I don’t see that changing in the future. She will hopefully remain here with me and we will work on the fears and confusion that brought her to make these horribly misguided decisions. When and if she has grown and changed enough then maybe we work back into the rest of it. In the meantime she will do her chores, we will be together and that will be enough.

I would like to thank Kimiko’s sister and my other baby girl Tatsumi for her understanding and support today. She is awesome.