scary\/wonderful<\/b><\/u> – how good things can sometimes freak out good
\npeople<\/p>\n
Well, anyone who has been watching this We are really in deep sheep-dip as it were. After giving our all to the Not that we don’t believe. We do. Not that we don’t care, because I believe dotPublishing was entering a hibernation phase. Just getting ready to see the Then what happens? We get a call from some folks at the oh…my…god<\/b><\/p>\n So here it is… a break in the clouds. We have 8 days to be ready to be So one would hope this would be completely good news…<\/p>\n Except – there is deep fear. Mentally, we were prepared to shut it down – our Sometimes, when you have already dealt with the pain of loss, the most I think in a way we were all looking forward to the stability and Well, 95% sure. It would have taken a while till the siren song of normalcy But now, there is no rest. We have to kick ass for 8 days… and then we have More to the point… given how short this time frame is, what if we fail? Can we fuck this up permanently?<\/p>\n No<\/b><\/i>. Even if we are not suave and slick, we will be ahead. They So where is the danger here? <\/p>\n It is this – will the pressure of hope… will the struggle to reach I hope not. We are better than that. <\/p>\n I do know that it won’t tear the dream apart. The dream is mine. It is in me I hope that those that share the dream with me will come along for the ride Because I’ll need all that help then too \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n In the meantime, I am going to teach tonight – from 6:00pm till 8:00 then Then I am going to kick some ass.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" scary\/wonderful – how good things can sometimes freak out good people Well, anyone who has been watching this blog and those of the people close to me know that there has been a lot of stress. The Internet economy is doing pretty poorly, and investment funds had dried up a long time ago in this […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":53202,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"aside","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[278],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1111"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1111"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1111\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/53202"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1111"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1111"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1111"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nblog<\/a> and those of the
\npeople close to me<\/a> know
\nthat there has been a lot of stress. The Internet economy is doing
\npretty poorly<\/a>,
\nand investment funds had dried up a long time ago in this market. <\/p>\n
\ncreation of our virtual actor\/actress technology and keeping the company alive
\nit many of the team are at the end of our rope. The shear number of applications
\nflying out of
\ndotPublishing<\/a> is pretty outstanding. I mean, there are only a few of us but
\nwe are applying<\/a> to a lot
\nof jobs \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
\nin my heart that the whole team wishes nothing but success to this firm. No,
\nit’s because we cannot pay our rent, or eat, or care for our pets without some
\nincome.<\/p>\n
\nteam split up and move on to other jobs. Not abandoned, but sleeping until we
\nfigured out how to keep the lights on and more. We need to actually live. Three
\nyears of abject poverty is enough.<\/p>\n
\nVenture Association of New
\nJersey<\/a> returning our calls. They have an opening at their
\nnext meeting<\/a>
\nand want to know if we can present. We will have some time to make our company
\nknown to some of those who are still able and willing to invest.<\/p>\n
\nimpressive for 5 minutes. I think we can do it… hell I know<\/i><\/b> we
\ncan do it. If it works out we will be back on top and I can maybe keep my team
\ntogether.<\/p>\n
\nheadspace was already out of here and off into the horrible reality of moving in
\nwith our parents and\/or flipping burgers.<\/p>\n
\npainful thing you can get is hope.<\/p>\n
\npredictability – even the relative safety of being at the bottom of the barrel.
\nWe could relax and tell ourselves we were working on bringing dotPublishing out
\nof hibernation … without having to put in 100+ hours a week for a while. And
\neventually, we would have come out of it I am sure. <\/p>\n
\nlost it’s grip on us. <\/p>\n
\nto kick ass to close a deal (if we get one) and then we have to kick ass to make
\nsure we don’t waste the chance. In other words – back into the fray. <\/p>\n
\nWhat if this presentation tanks? What if they investors decide to never talk to
\nus again?<\/p>\n
\nwill know our name. They will see our product. They will hear our words. The
\nworst thing we can be here is boring – and we can always come back and fix that.<\/p>\n
\nfor this success be something that tears my team apart?<\/p>\n
\nlike my blood and my bones. Nothing will keep it from rising again. I have
\ncarried it on on my own when that was my only choice – and if need be I could do
\nit again.<\/p>\n
\nthis time. Lord knows I can use all the help I can get and their wisdom and
\nadvice is valuable beyond measure. If not, then I’ll fight this battle on my own
\n– and maybe if I win it they will be ready to come back when the challenge is
\nnot finding the ability to hope – but instead finding the ability to realize
\nwhat hope gave us.<\/p>\n
\ntake my class at the dojo. I am going to tell my Sensei that for the next 8 days
\nI will not be able to teach or help as much. I will see if I can borrow a few
\nhundred dollars to photocopy some flyers and get my suit cleaned.<\/p>\n