{"id":50848,"date":"2002-07-15T07:30:24","date_gmt":"2002-07-15T07:30:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.soulhuntre.com\/items\/date\/2002\/07\/15\/randomness\/"},"modified":"2002-07-15T07:30:24","modified_gmt":"2002-07-15T07:30:24","slug":"randomness-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/2002\/07\/15\/randomness-2\/","title":{"rendered":"randomness\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Well, I had a cool entry for you with a lot of links to stuff&#8230; but I<\/p>\n<p>accidentally closed my editor without saving so you are out of luck.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ll clue you in more tomorrow&#8230; but a quick run of<\/p>\n<p>thoughts:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\n<p>I am not yet the man I should be&#8230; and it is<\/p>\n<p>  hurting my life.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>Casual BDSM&#8230; you know, just picking up a belt<\/p>\n<p>  and hitting someone who enjoys it because I want to and they want me to?<\/p>\n<p>  Pretty alien to me at the moment. How the hell did that happen? if I can find<\/p>\n<p>  it, if I can figure it out I think I will have something important.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>It&#8217;s the 15th. Rent due again today. Either we<\/p>\n<p>  figure something out today or tomorrow or it looks like we will lose the<\/p>\n<p>  office\/house next month. This is way uncool.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>Health insurance issues &#8211; like $1,100 worth soon<\/p>\n<p>  (days really) or <a href=\"http:\/\/www.girl2.com\/\">Kimiko<\/p>\n<p>  and Tatsumi<\/a> get screwed over and lose a lot of medications. This also<\/p>\n<p>  sucks.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>I did yard work Sunday&#8230; can you believe that?<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>Investor meeting tomorrow. Hope and pray it is<\/p>\n<p>  good. But they aren&#8217;t nearly going to put money in right away.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>I need a lot of sleep.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>Why is it I crave validation so much? What is<\/p>\n<p>  wrong with me that I feel stronger when someone will bend a knee to me? This<\/p>\n<p>  desire for strength is my weakness&#8230; if I am not careful me it will lead me<\/p>\n<p>  to my knees someday I think.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>Saw &quot;<a href=\"http:\/\/www.reignoffire.com\">Reign<\/p>\n<p>  of Fire<\/a>&quot; last night (Sunday) and I think it rocked. The best plot ever?<\/p>\n<p>  Nope. But it looked cool and I&#8217;ll probably want it on DVD someday.<\/li>\n<li>\n<p>In among the stress today however there was some<\/p>\n<p>  happiness. My mind seemed more at ease today (Sunday)&#8230; that was good, and<\/p>\n<p>  good for me. Smiles and casual contact&#8230; very good for me.&nbsp; <\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Night!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well, I had a cool entry for you with a lot of links to stuff&#8230; but I accidentally closed my editor without saving so you are out of luck. I&#8217;ll clue you in more tomorrow&#8230; but a quick run of thoughts: I am not yet the man I should be&#8230; and it is hurting my [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":53168,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"aside","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[278],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50848"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=50848"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50848\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/53168"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=50848"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=50848"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/legacyiamsenseiken.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=50848"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}